I drank my coffee this morning, gazing out at my snow covered garden - dreaming up this year's garden plans and browsing through my seed catalogue...
It dawned on me - how plants have healed, guided + nurtured me in the darkest most lonely times of my life, that my personal wellness journey with plant medicine didn’t start just when I was going through miscarriage and infertility.
It began long before. When I met my husband and chose to move to away from all my friends and family to be with him, life slowed down VERY quick. Going from a super busy social lifestyle to complete stillness and at times felt isolating to not have any friends or family nearby.
A few years later we moved out of the city to the acreage. As soon as I drove in and saw the barn and the sunset I knew there was something magical about this place. (nothing beats those Alberta skies!)
I found a passion in gardening and flowers and it quickly became my therapy.
It was the only place in my life where I felt at ease and at peace with the quiet and stillness. The more I nurtured them, the more they nurtured me.
Having my hands in the earth and dirt under my fingernails and between my toes is where I felt most grounded, most authentically me.
Looking back now, I realized….I NEEDED that space in my life. I needed the quiet, the stillness, to come back to myself, to my body. To get quiet and listen to my heart and soul and what it truly needed.
The healing that my gardens and flowers had given me was the gift of transformation.
It was after that, through recurrent miscarriage that it clicked for me. On a mental and spiritual level I knew the plants had healing properties, but that is when I knew the next step in my journey was to also learn more about their physical healing properties and how I could start infusing that into my daily life and self care rituals.
I would often resent my husband for being so far away from those I loved, even though I chose to move.
But now I see so clearly, how life often doesn’t give us what we think we want, it gives us what we truly need.